It has been so very long and I have missed this ever so dearly.
I hope you are all doing well. 🙂
Please excuse me if I am a little rusty.
Please know that I am happy to be back, to hear the soft clicking of my fingers tapping each key and the warm hum of evening acoustic in the background that makes me feel at home. I lean back into the familiar comfort of the living room couch and feel the support of the pillows stacked behind me, as I take a deep breath and collect the the courage to share & remind myself to not fight the stillness, but rather to embrace it.
This has been a season of processing.
Since we last spoke, I have graduated from college, moved, got engaged & married.
I have come to the realization that there are so many things that no one tells you (cue crying laughter/well duh emoji here). 🙂
But I am also seeing grace, sacrificial service and faith in a whole new light.
Marriage has taught me more about my relationship with Christ and revealed to me more about the relationship between our Heavenly Father & His people than anything in my life has up until this point.
Every day I must die to myself so that I may allow the Lord to work in & through me, if I want to love my husband well. Then there are times when I am faced with my own brokenness, selfishness & humanity, times where I feel as though I have let my best friend down or hurt him. In these times, I come to him and ask for forgiveness – knowing full-well that I don’t deserve it, yet, he embraces me, kisses my forehead and says “honey, it’s okay, I love you & I’m not going anywhere”. Then of course, I breakdown in tears (okay, let’s be honest, I was probably already crying) – but in that moment, I am completely overwhelmed, because I feel & know just how much another human being loves me. At that moment, I realize that the creator of heaven & earth, the all-powerful, all-knowing, ever-present, eternal, Lord, whom I call my Heavenly Father, loves me infinitely more than that. He not only sent His son to carry the weight of ALL of my sins, before I was born, he also took the time to create & form every aspect of my being. Each day, He takes the time to hold me, to be with me, to talk to me, to listen, to teach me more about Himself and to pull me close and remind me of His love for me and His promises to His people, but in order to experience these things, I must come to Him, seek Him. When I seek Him, I never fail to be amazed at the fact that it was finished at the cross, I am forgiven and I am loved – He is not going anywhere. ❤
Not because of anything that I have done, but because of who He is.
Yeah, it’s really that good. And He really is that Great.
Friends, if you, like me, are in a time of transition, reflection or decision-making, please know that I am praying for you, that you DO matter and that you are NOT alone in this.
Thank you for having me back & for your grace as I jump back into the blogging world.
I hope these words encourage your dear soul this evening.
All my love, because trust me, you ARE loved. ❤